Thursday, April 12, 2012

The hardest step...

This has been a tough week for me.  My daughter has been sick so that means very little sleep for mommy.  She is fine, just a cold, but she is miserable.  When she has a cold I have to suction her trach more often during the night than usual, so that also means less sleep for mommy.   On Tuesday and Thursday evenings, I usually meet a friend for a run at the track at the local high school.  Mike got home late tonight, so I missed the track run.  I put Andrea to bed early and was determined to get a run in tonight. 

After a rough week, I REALLY did not feel like going for a run.  I was tired and just wanted to sit on the couch and watch Grey’s Anatomy.  I keep thinking about a quote I read yesterday.  “Sometimes the hardest step is the one out the door.”  Still not feeling like going for a run, I put on my running shoes and my jacket.  I set my RunKeeper and made that hard step out the front door.  I told myself just one trip around the neighborhood and I could stop—about one mile.  I usually do three trips around my neighborhood, around three miles, but if I was not feeling it I could stop.  After about half a mile, I told myself I would do two miles.  By the time I hit the first mile, I vowed to do all three. 

Once I got home after doing all three miles, I felt so great.  It turned out to be a great run.  My time was good and I ran more of the crazy hills in my neighbor than I have before.  I am so glad I fought the urge to just watch TV.  I am so glad I got out there and actually ran!  How do you get yourself to work out when you really don’t want to?  Do you have anything you tell yourself to make yourself work out, even when you really don’t feel like it? 

A dream is a wish…



  1. How did I miss that your daughter has a trach? My daughter had one for almost four years (she's almost 6 right now; she got it out almost 2 years ago). Wow. I'm in San Diego, and am also doing the half marathon in June. I feel like we're on kind of parallel lives! :)

  2. Crazy how much we have in common! I will be following your blog for now on. See you in San Diego.

  3. I did not realize you are the parent of a child with medical needs. I have an almost 3 year old that is listed for an intestinal transplant and is fed by an IV for 18 hours a day. I know how hard it is to get workouts in when you are juggling medical needs. I get up at 4:45 AM several morning a week to get my long runs in and a few speedy 5Ks before meeting with my trainer. It isn't easy getting up as our little guy is up several times a night with beeping machines and needing diaper changes but I know I have more energy and am better able to cope with challenges when I work out
    Keep up the great work.

    1. Donna,

      I had no idea about your child. That must be very scary. Do you know when the transplant will be? My daughter is almost three also. I can totally relate to being woke up by beeping alarms all night! It has been a tough three years, but worth every second. She is my little princess. I have learned so much about what is really important in life because of her. She is actually why I started running. I gained 60 pounds her first year of life--between the 5 months in the hospital with her or at the Ronald McDonald House, then getting absolute no sleep when she got to come home. Then I decided that she deserved a healthy and happy mom, so I registered for the Disney Princess Half. Now I am hooked! I am so not a morning person, so I run late at night after she goes to bed. My husband watches TV and answers her alarms while I am gone. Please keep me posted on your little one. Us special needs mommas need to stick together!